Still here!

So nice that people actually care

Unfortunately I don’t have much to report this week.  I finally had an appointment with the specialist on Monday morning and that wiped me out for the rest of the day.  She put me back in place .. AGAIN..but I am afraid that my pelvis has already slipped out again as the nerve pain in my leg is back as well as a lot of muscular pain in the hamstring.  I will try going to the shops tomorrow as I need some things but I am not very hopeful.  Luckily I have another appointment set up for Thursday.

We chatted a bit about what’s going wrong with my tratment at the moment and she said it was two things.  1.  There has been a change to my posture.  I usually have terrific posture (all those years of ballet I guess) but I got a macbook in October and have been using that whilst sitting on the sofa.  So I must stop that.  2.  The cold weather is messing me up.  This winter has been especially cold (January was the coldest recorded in 110 years)  and she said she has never had so many problems with her patients before.  So, constant hot showers and layers of thermals is the best I can do until I escape to Australia in March.  Problem is I need this sorted out before I go or else I will never survive the plane trip there.

As for my weight loss.  <BIG SIGH>  I am the ‘maintain queen’ it seems.  I am sitting at 80.0kg .  That is a minuscule loss of 100g  and barely worth mentioning in my opinion.  Don’t get me wrong, I am thrilled that I am not gaining weight…but it’s another week with no weight loss and that is bugging me.  There’s not a lot I can do about it though and I can’t deprive myself of any more calories without making myself even more miserable.  Gawd, I really want to see that scale drop below 80 though!

The other thing on my mind…and I have a confession to make is that I need to stop smoking.  I used to smoke a lot and then I quit cold turkey for 2 and a half years.  I started again three years ago and smoke around five to six cigarettes a day.  But I have to stop!  I know it shouldn’t be that difficult as I have done it before coming off 20 cigarettes a day…but my heart is not in it.  I know I need to do it for my health.  I know I need to do it if we are going to try for a baby.  I know I need to quit before I travel to Australia so I don’t stress out on the flights. …..I am scared I will gain weight.  Can I control my eating, quitting and deal with the pain of my dysfunctional body all at the same time?  We’ll see.  I will try as of tomorrow.

Checking in on all of you now.  Hope everyone has been successful.